One day at break time
I was happily talking with Tatsuya at the class.
I could see from my side that Kazuya was running somewhere.
At that time I got bad feelings but still continued talking...
Hiro came to my class with a very intense look on his face
Kazuya should have told Hiro that I was talking with Tatsuya.
Hiro came closer and opened the class' door violently.
Tatsuya was waiting but saying nothing though he wanted to
and he faced Hiro while protecting Mika.
Those two were glaring at each other.
The tall Hiro should be quite appealing.
But Tatsuya that wouldn't want to lose glared back at him.
The class became still as death
and the atmosphere got intense.
"Hey, do not talk to my girlfriend"
The one that first talked
was Hiro.
"Is talking wrong?"
"Do not talk to my girlfriend"
"You do not have the right to say that"
Hiro was astonished,
by strong Tatsuya.
"Ha?"
"You are harassing Mika right?"
"Haa? I don't understand"
Mika could not stand that situation and tried to interrupt between those two.
"Tatsuya is not at fault!! The one to be blamed is Mika..."
Hiro's expression was changed
when Mika stood up for Tatsuya.
But the truth is Tatsuya was not the one to be blamed.
And then...
Friday, October 8, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
Koizora Chapter 4 Page 7
"... I don't!!"
The truth is
I was pushing myself.
But I did not want him to know.
Tatsuya was raising another question
to Mika who was trembling while answered.
"Was it really a cold?"
"Yes! It's a cold!!"
"Then what happened with your wrist?"
I lost in words.
I thought that no one would realize since I put a wristband...
"I realize about it. Your left wrist... Did something happen? I would not tell anyone else, so will you tell me?"
I wanted to rely on someone,
I wanted someone to listen.
It was a rape.
A harassment from the ex-girlfriend.
Because of that my stomach was in pain.
I told Tatsuya everything.
"Your left wrist... did you try to kill yourself?"
"...Yeah"
"It must be painful..."
While saying that Tatsuya walked to the window,
he looked like wiping tears with his hand.
Did he cry for me?
I wondered if I was wrong.
By Tatsuya's suggestion
I changed my PHS to the new one.
Thanks to the new number, the pestering was stopped,
Tatsuya was encouraging the dispirited Mika along the break time.
The one who observed at the two of us being like this
was Kazuya from the same class.
Kazuya was in the same group as Hiro, he was Hiro's best friend.
Somehow
I felt a bad premonition...
The truth is
I was pushing myself.
But I did not want him to know.
Tatsuya was raising another question
to Mika who was trembling while answered.
"Was it really a cold?"
"Yes! It's a cold!!"
"Then what happened with your wrist?"
I lost in words.
I thought that no one would realize since I put a wristband...
"I realize about it. Your left wrist... Did something happen? I would not tell anyone else, so will you tell me?"
I wanted to rely on someone,
I wanted someone to listen.
It was a rape.
A harassment from the ex-girlfriend.
Because of that my stomach was in pain.
I told Tatsuya everything.
"Your left wrist... did you try to kill yourself?"
"...Yeah"
"It must be painful..."
While saying that Tatsuya walked to the window,
he looked like wiping tears with his hand.
Did he cry for me?
I wondered if I was wrong.
By Tatsuya's suggestion
I changed my PHS to the new one.
Thanks to the new number, the pestering was stopped,
Tatsuya was encouraging the dispirited Mika along the break time.
The one who observed at the two of us being like this
was Kazuya from the same class.
Kazuya was in the same group as Hiro, he was Hiro's best friend.
Somehow
I felt a bad premonition...
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Koizora Chapter 4 Page 6
I was so glad
that Manami was there.
If Manami was not there,
maybe Mika would not still alive at this time.
I was in pain that much. Thank you...
Several days later I was discharged from the hospital safely.
As usual, the pestering mails and calls didn't stop,
but strangely I had been accustomed to that.
I would not worry about that.
The white wristband still had not been unfastened..
Back to school after a while.
I had made my friends and Hiro
awfully worried about me.
At the break time, when I looked outside the window...
"Are you free now?"
The one who spoke was Tatsuya.
We had been exchanging contact a long ago and sending mails also, but it's been a while since the last time we talked to each other.
If I was seen talking to another man
Hiro would get angry...
Mika looked at the surroundings restlessly.
Tatsuya realized what Mika had done and he murmured to me.
"If you don't want to be seen, let's talk at the music room?"
After confirming that Tatsuya had gone out from the classroom,
I went to the music room while worrying about not being seen by Hiro.
"What happened??"
"Mika has gotten thinner"
"Really? Thank you♪"
Looking at Mika who deliberately answered cheerfully,
Tatsuya made a worrying face.
"I feel~ do you overdo yourself?"
that Manami was there.
If Manami was not there,
maybe Mika would not still alive at this time.
I was in pain that much. Thank you...
Several days later I was discharged from the hospital safely.
As usual, the pestering mails and calls didn't stop,
but strangely I had been accustomed to that.
I would not worry about that.
The white wristband still had not been unfastened..
Back to school after a while.
I had made my friends and Hiro
awfully worried about me.
At the break time, when I looked outside the window...
"Are you free now?"
The one who spoke was Tatsuya.
We had been exchanging contact a long ago and sending mails also, but it's been a while since the last time we talked to each other.
If I was seen talking to another man
Hiro would get angry...
Mika looked at the surroundings restlessly.
Tatsuya realized what Mika had done and he murmured to me.
"If you don't want to be seen, let's talk at the music room?"
After confirming that Tatsuya had gone out from the classroom,
I went to the music room while worrying about not being seen by Hiro.
"What happened??"
"Mika has gotten thinner"
"Really? Thank you♪"
Looking at Mika who deliberately answered cheerfully,
Tatsuya made a worrying face.
"I feel~ do you overdo yourself?"
Koizora Chapter 4 Page 5
Towards Hiro and my school mates, I was lying by telling that I caught a cold and had to rest a while
Even when I was hospitalized,
Mails and calls from Hiro's ex were not stopping.
Even when I turned off the power,
I still felt that the phone kept ringing.
The reminiscent talk that I heard about Hiro and her
had put images inside my head.
In that kind of situation, there's no way my stomach pain would be healed,
thus I had to prolong the hospitalization.
It's painful...
It couldn't be helped.
I wanted to be at ease.
After confirming that my parents had gone from the hospital
I grabbed the paring knife that was there near me.
I wanted to be at ease.
I wanted to be at ease.
I put the knife on my wrist,
when I started to cut...
"...What are you doing!"
Suddenly Manami who went to visit rushed over to the bed,
then she threw away the knife to the floor.
"If Mika died there are many people that would be sad. I would also be sad if Mika died and I couldn't live also"
Manami hugged Mika
and cried together.
The wound on my wrist was shallow
Manami treated it with the antiseptic solution and bandages she bought from the convenience store.
"The wound, hide it with this. Never do this again!"
While saying that,
she gave me a white wristband.
Even when I was hospitalized,
Mails and calls from Hiro's ex were not stopping.
Even when I turned off the power,
I still felt that the phone kept ringing.
The reminiscent talk that I heard about Hiro and her
had put images inside my head.
In that kind of situation, there's no way my stomach pain would be healed,
thus I had to prolong the hospitalization.
It's painful...
It couldn't be helped.
I wanted to be at ease.
After confirming that my parents had gone from the hospital
I grabbed the paring knife that was there near me.
I wanted to be at ease.
I wanted to be at ease.
I put the knife on my wrist,
when I started to cut...
"...What are you doing!"
Suddenly Manami who went to visit rushed over to the bed,
then she threw away the knife to the floor.
"If Mika died there are many people that would be sad. I would also be sad if Mika died and I couldn't live also"
Manami hugged Mika
and cried together.
The wound on my wrist was shallow
Manami treated it with the antiseptic solution and bandages she bought from the convenience store.
"The wound, hide it with this. Never do this again!"
While saying that,
she gave me a white wristband.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Koizora Chapter 4 Page 4
The contents of the pestering mail from Hiro's ex are...
"Break up"
"Ugly"
"Die"
"Disgusting"
"Get lost"
...those are repeating every day.
On the phone,
she made me listen to the remembrance of Hiro and her.
Like,
"when I first time make love with Hiro~"
or,
"when we went there for a date~"
Every time I hang up the phone,
the calls keep coming.
If I don't answer,
or turn off the power
there are still days when the calls from dating site or prank calls keep coming and never stop.
It keeps continuing everyday without Hiro even knowing about this.
Though I am confused whether I should discuss with Hiro or not, I don't want to make Hiro being worried...
and I don't want to be involved with Hiro's ex girlfriends anymore.
If Mika is being patient,
I thought she will calm down someday.
But the pestering has no indication to stop,
Talks about remembrance with Hiro that I don't want to hear,
defamation of being ugly and asked to die etc...
Loss of confidence and emotionally stress,
Mika is being hospitalized
My stomach feels funny,
and I repeatedly vomit.
Because of stress, my stomach began to hurt.
I just told one of my middle high school friend named Manami,
about me being hospitalized.
"Break up"
"Ugly"
"Die"
"Disgusting"
"Get lost"
...those are repeating every day.
On the phone,
she made me listen to the remembrance of Hiro and her.
Like,
"when I first time make love with Hiro~"
or,
"when we went there for a date~"
Every time I hang up the phone,
the calls keep coming.
If I don't answer,
or turn off the power
there are still days when the calls from dating site or prank calls keep coming and never stop.
It keeps continuing everyday without Hiro even knowing about this.
Though I am confused whether I should discuss with Hiro or not, I don't want to make Hiro being worried...
and I don't want to be involved with Hiro's ex girlfriends anymore.
If Mika is being patient,
I thought she will calm down someday.
But the pestering has no indication to stop,
Talks about remembrance with Hiro that I don't want to hear,
defamation of being ugly and asked to die etc...
Loss of confidence and emotionally stress,
Mika is being hospitalized
My stomach feels funny,
and I repeatedly vomit.
Because of stress, my stomach began to hurt.
I just told one of my middle high school friend named Manami,
about me being hospitalized.
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