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"... I don't!!"


The truth is
I was pushing myself.
But I did not want him to know.


Tatsuya was raising another question
to Mika who was trembling while answered.



"Was it really a cold?"


"Yes! It's a cold!!"


"Then what happened with your wrist?"



I lost in words.
I thought that no one would realize since I put a wristband...


"I realize about it. Your left wrist... Did something happen? I would not tell anyone else, so will you tell me?"



I wanted to rely on someone,
I wanted someone to listen.


It was a rape.

A harassment from the ex-girlfriend.

Because of that my stomach was in pain.


I told Tatsuya everything.


"Your left wrist... did you try to kill yourself?"


"...Yeah"


"It must be painful..."


While saying that Tatsuya walked to the window,
he looked like wiping tears with his hand.


Did he cry for me?
I wondered if I was wrong.






By Tatsuya's suggestion
I changed my PHS to the new one.



Thanks to the new number, the pestering was stopped,

Tatsuya was encouraging the dispirited Mika along the break time.





The one who observed at the two of us being like this
was Kazuya from the same class.



Kazuya was in the same group as Hiro, he was Hiro's best friend.



Somehow
I felt a bad premonition...

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I was so glad
that Manami was there.


If Manami was not there,
maybe Mika would not still alive at this time.


I was in pain that much. Thank you...




Several days later I was discharged from the hospital safely.



As usual, the pestering mails and calls didn't stop,
but strangely I had been accustomed to that.


I would not worry about that.


The white wristband still had not been unfastened..





Back to school after a while.


I had made my friends and Hiro
awfully worried about me.


At the break time, when I looked outside the window...



"Are you free now?"


The one who spoke was Tatsuya.

We had been exchanging contact a long ago and sending mails also, but it's been a while since the last time we talked to each other.



If I was seen talking to another man
Hiro would get angry...


Mika looked at the surroundings restlessly.


Tatsuya realized what Mika had done and he murmured to me.


"If you don't want to be seen, let's talk at the music room?"


After confirming that Tatsuya had gone out from the classroom,
I went to the music room while worrying about not being seen by Hiro.





"What happened??"


"Mika has gotten thinner"


"Really? Thank you♪"


Looking at Mika who deliberately answered cheerfully,
Tatsuya made a worrying face.



"I feel~ do you overdo yourself?"

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Towards Hiro and my school mates, I was lying by telling that I caught a cold and had to rest a while

Even when I was hospitalized,
Mails and calls from Hiro's ex were not stopping.


Even when I turned off the power,
I still felt that the phone kept ringing.

The reminiscent talk that I heard about Hiro and her
had put images inside my head.


In that kind of situation, there's no way my stomach pain would be healed,
thus I had to prolong the hospitalization.


It's painful...
It couldn't be helped.
I wanted to be at ease.


After confirming that my parents had gone from the hospital
I grabbed the paring knife that was there near me.


I wanted to be at ease.
I wanted to be at ease.



I put the knife on my wrist,
when I started to cut...




"...What are you doing!"



Suddenly Manami who went to visit rushed over to the bed,
then she threw away the knife to the floor.



"If Mika died there are many people that would be sad. I would also be sad if Mika died and I couldn't live also"

Manami hugged Mika
and cried together.




The wound on my wrist was shallow
Manami treated it with the antiseptic solution and bandages she bought from the convenience store.



"The wound, hide it with this. Never do this again!"


While saying that,
she gave me a white wristband.